pause button

I think this is an age where I'd love to just press the pause button and keep Brie at this age. She's just learning so much and is like a little sponge. She tells me at the most random times "mama, I just love you" and that is so sweet to hear and I know down the road when she's a grumpy teenager I'll be dying to hear something like that. I think even though Brie is super young she understands that mama tries really hard to make her happy and give her a good life. Obviously I overcompensate because her father isn't here in person but she's very appreciative most of the time :)

picking out names

I am fairly sure it was on this day (or close to it) when Brian and I were thumbing thru a baby name book while he was on hospice. For a split second I think we both forgot the tragedy of the situation and just had fun discussing possibilities and trying to find some meaning behind them. We wanted a boy name that had the initials BRH so we settled on Brody Robert Hogan because we thought he sounded like a surfer from Laguna Beach. The girl name was harder. Brian really wanted Emily for the girl name but I had reservations because of my BF Emily that died in 1993...so while we were watching Wheel of Fortune I came across Brianna which was like the biggest lightbulb above my head. I put the book down, told him the name and with a very choked up voice, he said "its perfect" and now I sit here with my beautiful 3 yr old....5 yrs later watching Brianna Emilee watch TV as I type this...little does she know I changed Emily to Emilee about 5 days before the c-section after my favorite Spa treatment at Burke Williams....called Emilee's Intrigue. Which is a magic if anyone wants to buy it for me! :)